Wow, November 23rd was my last blog post? Has it really been that long? I guess I have so much to bring you all up to speed on huh? The only question is where to start.
The first thing I want to tell you guys is that I'm back in Topeka. Permanently back. So what happened? Well my job was working in Oklahoma, as most of you knew, and most also knew that our Oklahoma contract was coming up. Unfortunately my company,s contract in Oklahoma didn't continue. I don't know the circumstances, but honestly, I told my bosses about it roughtly 6 months in advance and even after I came home this last time and we still didn't know what would come if it, I knew it was over. My options were to travel south for a job or look locally. Working down south wouldn't ever give me a life away from work so I would never see home so the best option was to get a job back here, in Topeka, so thats what I'm working on. As far as the "dirty" details as to why I'm not going south, I choose not to burn bridges and this is how I will leave it.
So I'm currently looking for a job in Topeka. (Seriously, anyone with insight let me know. lol) I've had a few interviews and one of the better jobs I could have got didn't pan out for me, however I do have an interview this coming week with the Kansas Department of Health and Environment (KDHE). It doesn't seem to be a good idea financially based on the rate of income, but I'm looking longterm, so moving up, benefits, and a 401k work for good motivators right now.
lol Oh..., I never like to get too personal on my blogs but I always said that this one would be different because it was intended to get personal.
I've got a big house. I've got a big house and its just me here. Crazy right? I know some of you haven't seen it, but trust me, its the biggest on the block. It can get kinda lonely here once in a while, mostly at night.
Anyone out there ever get the feeling that they are grasping at straws, just to get the short straw and come to find out it leaves you short of what your trying to say? If that makes sense to you. Over all this time that I've been blogging, which as been years if you read my myspace, theres just things I can't touch on, mostly my personal love life. How crazy is that?
Fuck it, lets give it a shot anyways. So..... theres this girl. (Yeah, alot of stories start like that. So what right? Shut up, I'm talking here.) So theres this girl, one I've got this "infatuation" with (thats a good word for now), but for the simple sake that I'm afraid to look like an ass I don't really say anything. Now, lets not get it twisted here because its obvious, not like I hide it, but I just hate looking like an ass. I just can't get a beat on the situation. I mean, she knows, I just wish she would just give me a hint (one thats more obvious than getting slapped in the face) or just tell me to piss off and we can continue staying friends. It sucks being the nice, shy guy who respects peoples space. DAMN YOU MOTHER FOR RAISING ME RIGHT! But I digress. (Who knows, maybe shes reading this.)
Ever notice how I have lots of side notes and punctuation? Yeah, me neither.
For the artists out there reading this, any of you guys buy and use copic markers? They are EXPENSIVE! I spent $22 on 3 of those fuckers. THREE!!! Atleast they are refillable, but they don't tell you that, nor does anyone locally carry the ink on hand, but it gets even better because if you did know they are refillable and did know where to order the ink, WHO KNEW THAT THERES SPECIAL TOOLS TO REFIL THEM PROPPERLY SO YOU DON'T MESS UP THE TIPS! Awesome markers though.
Speaking of art, yeah, school was a bust. I decided I'm not going back just yet because one, I ned to focus on the job thing and get a set schedule and secondly, I just need people to leave me the hell alone.
Lets talk. I love my friends, love them dearly. I'd do anything for you guys; however theres something I need to address. This goes out to all you friends who have turned on me, used me, said you were gonna pay me back but haven't, lied to my other friends and said I was places where I wasn't, doing things I wasn't just to get them mad at me, talk shit on me, degrade me, call and yell at me, .....fuck you guys. You aren't my friends. You aren't shit. Your one to take advantage of me just to benefit YOU. I don't mind helping you out, I don't mind listening if you need me to, but don't come around and think you can use me as a friend when you've done shit on our friendship. Oh yeah, and those of you who want to make it right, because you borrowed and used me, our friendship now has a price, so if your reading this, you can pay what you owe me, or consider that the amount YOU pissed away our friendship for. Glad YOU got off cheap, piss ant. (FYI, those of you making right on those debts, that doesn't apply to you :) )
Ya see, I've had a couple days to reevaluate me, who I am, who I used to be, and how things need to change. I realize that I haven't been at the top of my game for a few years now. Not like I used to. Not like before I moved away to begin with. So let me reintrooduce you to the new me which happens to be the old me. :) Its time to get shit handled.
So I've got friends who are doing this 30 day challenge of pictures. If your not sure of what it is, here:
Day 01 - A picture of yourself with fifteen facts.
Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been close with for the longest.
Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show.
Day 04 - A picture of your night.
Day 05 - A picture of one of your favorite memories.
Day 06 - A picture of a something on your mind.
Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item.
Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh.
Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.
Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most messed up things with.
Day 11 - A picture of something you hate.
Day 12 - A picture of something you love.
Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist.
Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without.
Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die.
Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you.
Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.
Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity.
Day 19 - A picture of you when you were little.
Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel.
Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget.
Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at.
Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book.
Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change.
Day 25 - A picture of your day.
Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you.
Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member.
Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of.
Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile.
Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss
While the pictures will end up on my facebook, in true "Pat fashion" who feels everything has a story, I'll blog a little and tell you about each pictures and why I chose it. So that means new pictures on my FB for the next 30 days and a new blog every day for the next 30 days. That should keep me busy.
So until later....
EXCELSIOR!!!
(God I miss that) ;)