Well HELLOOOOOO!
Its been a LONG while since I've updated here and rather than just give a tiny little Facebook status update and get a million questions, you got a blog. So smile. :) Cause you probably won't be if your reading this.
Oh, where to begin here. I'm not happy. Believe it or not, I'm not.
Ya know, all I want out of life is to have a good job, a home, family and friends with absolutely no drama in my life. Right now I've got a good paying job, don't own my own home and my entire personal life, be it friends or family, is all about drama. I don't really want to get into all the drama on here but its bull shit.
Recently I started the home buying process and while it was exciting, I found that going forward with it would have been a mistake. I say that for 2 reasons. While the house I was looking at had some great amenities I didn't feel I would be 100% happy with it. The other reason is the more and more I think about it, the more I'm not sure if I want to live in Topeka. The entire atmosphere seems a little stagnant around here. Every bit of drama in my life comes from Topeka and the surrounding area so if I'm trying to get away from it, buying a home in Topeka required a little more thought.
I'm really not happy about my dating life. Lets be honest right now, while I'm not dating someone right now I don't care to be. While my attention has been peaked here and there I'm done with the whole symantics of it all. Without throwing anyone under the bus here its an issue of (blank) has my attention but I don't have thiers or I have (blank's) attention but they don't have mine. I'm pretty sure that over the course of the last 4 years or so I've been so I've just devalued relationships and the whole process so I need that bit of a distance. So if there are any eligable ladies reading this, sorry, I'm officially off the market and its gonna take ALOT to get me to change that stand point.
For anyone who either takes offense to my opinions, just feels the want to tear my head off over nothing, or like to talk about me when they don't know jack shit, (here we go again, so I'm getting tired of this) Fuck you, cry me a river. I don't give anybody bllshit to deal with nor do I try to cover anyone in any so stop covering me in yours.
I guess what all I'm trying to say is that I'm kind of rebooting my life. So please let me give you a tour over some of the new changes. :)
Unless work related, for the most part, I need to put my cell phone down. That means leave me a voice mail or text message. I'm going to leave an hour or two a day to return phone calls or texts cause I'm tired of it ringing all day long. So no more conversations via text either. I need to disconnect and live a little. If its important, I'll get back with you right away, if not, I'll get back to you.
From now on I'm only doing for me. I'm tired of handing out favors, money, etc, and then not even hearing from someone until weeks later. With the going trend, if I need favors or even just to hang out, its like pulling teeth with some of you. Hell, even hanging out has me spending more money on you. (You being a broad term here, covering several people.)
So lets recap this whole blog post here. I'm not happy, I'm trying to get rid of drama, fuck you if you can't respect my opinion and leave your bullshit at home, I'm gonna hardley use my cell phone so occupy yourself, and I'm now gonna live for me, go woe is you somewhere else if you can't even hang out with me.
Great, now that we've got all that covered, I've got a few things artistically in the works..... if your still reading this and not offended. I've got a couple things I'm working on. One, learning a 3D animation program. Yeah, jumping into that. Second, I'm taking up painting. The animation program I'm learning is so I can push forward with Eichi. Yes, I'm still thinking about it even though its been FOREVER since I've mentioned it. The painting is more of a traditional painting kick. I finally found inspiration for it and right now that is the human figure, focussing mostly on line and form. I was gonna start painting this time I was in town but it didn't happen so maybe next time.
Speaking of next time, enjoy. :)
-Pat!
