Acceptance

So in the last 12 hours I've heard how an event and how my brother and I are a joke within the artist / nerd community. Labeled a joke by a community that doesn't know my brother well or me at all. A select few stand above them all handing down judgement on others for the blind to follow.  Even when trying to market myself within the group that we all are apart of (or I thought) I found myself being censored with post removals and overall blocking me promoting myself. 

I thought that "you either die a hero or live long enough to become the villain."

I've sat here trying to figure this out and how I'm going to proceed with it. I'm at a crossroad in how I handle this.

I did want to become the villain. I did want to tear their group apart from the inside. They "would be my meteor. My swift and powerful sword and the earth would crack under the weight of their failure. They wanna protect the world but they don't want it to change. How do they expect the community to be saved if it's not allowed to evolve." -Ultron

This unfortunately comes at a cost which is my integrity, my sense of self.

But I don't want to hurt the community. I don't wanna hurt anybody. I don't like bullies. I can't stand back however and let this spread. The larger picture is that this isn't about me. It's about the little guy trying to make something of themselves and trying to be something.  "Once you start running they'll never let you stop. You stand up, you push back, they can't say no forever." - Steve Rogers   We've got to be a better, accepting, and supportive community. Maybe creating that better community means tearing the old one down.

-Pat