Why I left FB

There's been a bit of a swirl immediately after I left Facebook. It caused a stir in a few, others posted on my status wondering why which confused me because why would someone ask me why on Facebook when I left facebook? I even got a few immediate responses via cell phone asking my why.

So here I am to tell you why I left and why your gonna see me back.

I left for several reasons and to say that it was an immediate decision would be a lie. It really wasn't. My decision to leave Facebook was a decision that's been a long time coming. There were a few immediate factors in the decision.

For starters, I guess I can start with one of the most embarrassing, I was contacted by a friend to ask my why I "friended" one of his friends from another state and with whom I had not met. It was an embarrassing situation because I didn't know. I didn't have an answer. I never sent a friend request because I don't usually send friend requests to even the people I know. The only thing resembling a reason that I could see was when I had a virus SOMEWHERE so I had to disconnect one of my computers from the network, and completely erased my phone and laptop. (For the record, based upon the time and date every bit of spam seemed to go out, I narrowed it down to my phone.)

Secondly was due to something that came fairly personally and due to going round and round... I felt inferior. Inferior due to some choices I made, thoughts, and overall this put me into a position to want to pull away from the world. I've felt ashamed of by someone, whether that be true or not, and it was a bit of a blow to me. I care to not really dwell on this any more so I'm going to leave it at this and never speak of it again, although I know never talking about this doesn't make it go away, but I have apologized for what I've done.

Lastly, I felt I put alot of time into Facebook. Too much time constantly getting updates from friends' statuses. I don't think that most of us realize the hypocrisy there is on Facebook. Even people who delete status comments to aim conversations certain ways. Its all a lie and I'm even guilty of it. Its a silent war on egos to see who either has the biggest ego or the lowest pity party. I had to leave because we seem to not only lie to each other but ourselves.

Here's a little fun fact, I still logged into Facebook. I logged in to see who payed attention, I logged in to see who was still sending me crap from games, but mostly to see the people that I don't have face to face or even cell phone to cell phone contact with. Late at night, at about 3 am, I logged in through my Xbox. I never shows me as being online. Of course today I logged in via my cell to check out the world I left less than a week ago.

So why in God's name would I be coming back to Facebook based on how I view it and the conversations that swirl about in drama? I miss so much. I miss updates providing links to art techniques, news updates, and statuses from my friends. Facebook is my eyes out to the world that is not immediately around me. That is why I'm coming back to Facebook.

Over these last several days I've had time to rethink my goals in life and where I'm really geared towards right now. All will be revealed in due time my friends so keep reading.

-Pat!